Time

I was going though a box of things that had been packed away for years.  I even found my diary that i wrote when i was dating my husband. When i read it i laughed so much at what 20 year old me wrote.  It is so funny how we think we know it all and think are so wise and when we look back we see how silly and young we really were! 

Something else that i found was a watch i used to wear when i was younger, it was so ugly...i am almost too embarrassed to mention it but it was a men's casio sports watch that had a calculator on it! Do you remember those? Mine was not sleek and pretty but big and bulky...but back in the day i thought i was so cool because it had a calculator!

When i was going through that box it brought back memories that made me smile, it brought me back to a time in life that was so simple...my biggest worry and concern was passing my classes in school and wondering if Tom would be my boyfriend!  I wish that life could be as simple as that now, but it is not...i am an adult and with that comes responsibilities.

 Things are different now, not just because of adult responsibilities...i wish that was the case.  My life has changed and will forever be changed because my 2 sons passed away...my future looks different...it still has amazing possibilities for great things to happen..but along with those great things i will always have a part of me that is missing, i will always be a mom missing and longing for my boys, nothing can change that till i am reunited with them in heaven.

The reason why i brought up the watch is because it had me think about time.  Something that i have learned on this journey is that time is so precious...life is so fragile...none of us know how much time we have on this earth and that is what makes it so special.  My baby boys only had little time on this earth, but that 30 weeks and 16 weeks of their lives were important and so precious..i will remember and honor their beautiful lives always.  Even though their lives here on earth were cut short i know that they are alive right now in heaven and that brings a peace to my heart.

Throughout this journey i have learned and found some important things regarding time that i wanted to share.

1. Our time belongs to God -

Psalms 139:16  'Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
This scripture is so beautiful and so intimate.  God knows, He is the creator of all things.  He knows whether we will live 1 day on this earth or 100 years.  As we walk this road of life i dare you to look at your day planner or calender or look back on your week and is spending time with the Lord your main priority in life? Do you set aside time just for Him in your day? Our time belongs to the Lord.

2. Time is for relationships-

Philippians 2:2-4 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others." 
We should spend our time in relationship with others, God is our first priority but after Him our family should come next.  And thirdly spending time with friends and other believers, loving and encouraging one another is so important.  Making memories and spending quality time with those we love is a precious gift we have been given and should not take for granted. God created us to have relationship with Him and with others.

3. Time can be savored-

We live in a faced paced world and before we know it time has slipped by us and we stop and think was all the busyness and the schedules worth it?  Life is going to happen, we will all have seasons where life is so fast paced we forget what month or year we are in...and it can get overwhelming trying to bring balance into a life of chaos.  God wants us to enjoy our lives!  It is important to take the time to savor even the small things in life and give thanks to the One who created it all for us. It is so easy to miss out on all the amazing things the Lord has for us when we get lost in our busy schedules. 
If you are eating a really amazingly rich desert you don't just gobble it down quickly, you take your time, you enjoy, savor each bite of your yummy food.  Life is like that desert it is rich and full of goodness and we just have to make ourselves take the time to enjoy it and to savor the moments.

 

To be able to do those things we need to let go of our "watches" metaphorically speaking and open up our hearts, our minds and our hands to the Lord knowing that he is in control of our time hear on earth and it is our responsibility to use it well.  We should live a life of love, letting others see Christ reflected in our lives until it is time for our life here on earth to end and we are then able to go home to heaven and begin to fully live..with Christ for eternity.