Today is 5 months since we said goodbye to Grant. Sometimes i cant believe that it has been 5 months and then there are times where i feel like it was 5 years ago. Right now if Grant would have lived he would have a beautiful 3 month old.
I have found that my grief is not as intense as it was before, i am still grieving...i will ALWAYS grieve for my son, but the deep, paralyzing grief i have had is fading slowly. I find myself thinking wow its been a week since i cried and then i start to feel guilty. I know i should not feel guilty the Lord does not want me to feel this way and i know Grant would not either. This is a lifetime journey. Its hard, so hard but I'm choosing to walk each day with my Lord, trusting that each moment will get easier, each step i take will go further with Him by my side.
Right now on the 5th month anniversary of his birth/death i am sitting here and just missing my beautiful baby boy, loving him and most importantly remembering him.
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